He really does LIFT our burdens!
The Refiner’s Fire – we all have to pass through it. Some of us in stages, some all at one.
I had a particularly hard few days. With my six kids, the youngest being an infant, my life is going here and there, nursing many hours a day, getting food for everyone for all three meals, cleaning all those up, dealing with a child who has NOT yet mastered potty training and the uncertainty of that situation daily, demands from the community and church, teaching preschool, and a husband who is teaching and coaching and was just about to leave to go downstate for several days with the boys he coaches for the State Finals. I was excited for him to go with what he and his team accomplished and had decided I would make this time as enjoyable as I could for everyone.
Suddenly, and without ANY warning the night before he leaves, a sickness that I completely dread descended upon with such swift ferociousness it took my breath away. I felt the ever familiar infection setting in of MASTITIS! I have had this now 6 times – the last time I was in bed for heavy fever and chills for 3 days straight, barely able to nurse my newborn, let alone take care of my other children.
This could not be! How could I just be getting MASTITIS while my husband would be gone for three days?!?! I knew if it was like the other times, I would have not strength at all – it usually left me very weak.
I asked several people to pray for me, knowing how much that would help.
14 and i will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will i do that ye may stand as witnesses for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety that i the lord god do visit my people in their afflictions.
15 and now it came to pass that the burdens which were laid upon alma and his brethren were made light; yea, the lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease, and they did submit cheerfully and with patience to all the will of the lord.
As my husband gave me a blessing that night, I asked the Lord right then to LIIFT MY BURDENS. A vision of sorts burst in and flooded my mind, and I was watching my Savior, Jesus Christ.
Jesus had a smile on face. He showed me my burdens were like these large stone square boulders I was seeing. I saw him take two of the large stone blocks with a pole running between them, and do BICEPT CURLS! He was not only LITERALLY LIFTING my burdens, He was doing it in a way to bring a smile to my face. Then I watched Him transfer the burden to the other arm, and do bicep curls with those. I was LOVING THIS! Our Savior has THE BEST sense of humor! I was grateful to LITERALLY WATCH HIM LIFT MY BURDENS!! What an unexpected gift!
I knew the Lord would truly lighten this load! Did I still get mastitis? Yes I did. Was the three days still hard going through it without my husband there, and an infant who didn’t understand why there was hardly any milk due to the infection, a toddler who couldn’t understand why I couldn’t give hugs without gasping in pain, a daughter who didn’t understand why I didn’t have the energy to take her to the parties she had Friday and Saturday, and never ending chores of making food, cleaning up, and taking care of 6 young children? YES! I will say it was actually some of the hardest days I have ever had.
BUT, I was able to function – at a low level, yes, but I wasn’t stuck in bed. I was able to maintain, gingerly, a somewhat normal life for my children. I was able to get some homeopathics also that I believe sped up the healing. I had a dear friend who felt I needed help and foot zoned me, my awesome sisters who prayed for me, all of which I believe helped greatly. It was the most mild case by FAR I had ever had. Though still extremely taxing, partially due to circumstances, I was able to learn what the Lord wanting me to learn.
What he really wanted me to learn was this: I needed to RELY ON THE LORD. I had been putting all my “relying” energy, if you will, on my husband in the physical world. I relied spiritually on the Lord, but not as much with the physical realm stuff, like helping with the challenges of the every day needs. I would just wait until my husband got home – and put that reliance energy on him to balance out what I was doing and had been doing during the day. The Lord wanting me to do that with Him.
So he DID lift my burdens, WHILE I went through the refiner’s fire and learned what He wanted me to learn. I am SO grateful for our Lord!!